So it's been....well, several months....I'm still single. Yup. Got a whole new attitude about it. It's sort of settled in with me. I guess I've gotten used to it. Adapted to it. Brought it to bed to snuggle, and discovered it didn't work. But that is where my pets come in. The boyfriend replacement dog has really done wonders for me. It's not perfect, but then, what is? Our fierce black cat, Otis, disappeared last spring. It was hard. Tears were shed. But now we have Kitteus, a lovely short haired black and white tabby who is all about the snuggles. So now my "empty" bed is a bed that contains me, my kitty, my puppy and sometimes my daughter, as well as myself. Not so empty any more.
Not sure why I stopped blogging, and not sure why I started again. But here I am. Not sure what I can report from here on in....I've removed myself from all dating sites, have stopped looking, and have stopped imagining that there is someone out there for me.....at least for right now. Instead I am concentrating on other things, like family, friends, theater and work. It's working out pretty well. I have a lead in the Musical Comedy Guild's production of Annie (I'm Miss Hannigan) and that is enough to keep me crazy busy until Christmas, really. My daughter continues to be a joy to me, and she is so much fun to hang out with now. I'm slowly easing myself into the world of budgeting, a concept that has alluded me lo these many years....and I started knitting again!! The turmoil of my last relationship is in the distant past, now, and I can see clearly the hazards and the delights of what that was for me. I miss it but I know it needed to end.
Good friends, old and new, have helped me to realize how full my life is, and how lucky I am. Most days, I am Queen of my Castle....and I love that. Some days I still feel like something is missing, but I am no longer certain if that is about me, or society. Time will tell, I suppose. At the moment, my goals are to be the best mother possible, to be the best Hannigan man has seen, to rock at teaching my fabulous Henry kids, and to be an available, supportive friend and family member. Oh, and obviously, I need to lose ten pounds before I can hit the stage in lingerie.
Stay tuned....I'm back!
