People, I have been noticing the opposite sex again lately....and I mean really NOTICING them. Somehow I've gone from "I don't give a shit" to "Oh you're kind of cute and maybe I COULD give a shit!" It hasn't happened often, because in this small town, it just wouldn't. But it HAS happened. And it is making me feel something like joy. What could be more fun that a little bit of flirtation? That whole excitement that builds around meeting someone new, discovering what your chemistry is, trying not to be nervous, etc. That could be good. Very good. A hell of a lot better than brooding, that's for sure. So it looks like I am beginning to see things in a much more positive light. Finally. Now, don't get my wrong....I'm not out there looking. Not yet. Maybe not for a very long time. But I guess where I am is in the place where I can see that I WILL want to be out there looking, at some point. And that feels like a good place to be in, right now. I like this place. It is a hopeful place to be. And I've always been a hopeful person. Without hope, what do we have?
Time for bed for this chick. Here's hoping that this hopeful place doesn't disappear on me. I will cross my fingers and my toes. And just for luck, I will pray to Cliff Burton and Thor. They won't dissappoint me. Not now.
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